Typical Stress

Work was terrible for me last night. Tuesday nights behind the bar are typically not extremely busy but I do have my hands full making lots of $2 Long Island Teas. But last night felt like a full fledged Friday night. I went in expecting to make about $40 bucks and be out by 9 and go about my way but it was so busy. I made about triple what I expected but I could not keep up. I am usually so fast and accurate and still able to keep good conversation and have fun. But last night I was 5 steps behind, back hurting, starving like I hadn't just eaten 2 hours before. And just overall unhappy. I felt like I wasn't pulling my weight with Kimmie. And we are going through a new menu and computer change so that's an added time consumer. I NEVER feel like that... I am always the best at what I do and I tend to make everyone else try to go faster to keep up. It sucked. I know, I'm pregnant... but I don't feel pregnant...so I don't feel like I should be slowing down yet. My books assure me that the first trimester is the most draining... but I just don't like feeling like I'm the best.

And then because of the fact we were supposed to be moving and Caleb hyper-extending his knee at his moving job... we're not working with our full potential of income. I'm so proud of him because he has already been hired at Buffalo Wild Wings in Smyrna and should be starting this week...along with he has his second interview with T-Mobile, which would be awesome with the pay and benefits. But for right now... we're living off of what I make...and it's tough. And stressful.

I got a call from my big boss today asking me to go back on the management schedule full time, because they do really need me...and as much as I need the cash right now, I think it was a blessing in disguise. Yes, it's longer hours on my feet but I can rest when I need to, eat when I need to, not bend over to wash dishes, not carry kegs or bus tubs, and go at my own pace. It will take about 3 weeks to get the steady pay check coming and get back on budget... and in 3 weeks Caleb will have steady money coming in too... but the next 3 weeks are gonna suck! So that stresses me. 

I already feel better after writing all of this down. I prayed today... I know everything will be fine, it always is. And He will always provide what I need. I just have to be more accepting... I'm working on that.

I need to be happy and relaxed. I need an easy-going baby...lol  Its just when I get a wave of emotion, whether is happy or sad or crazy, it overcomes me now. 

How about some positives? We have netflix and Caleb and I are completely addicted to Lost! It makes me very happy! Also, we are coming to Clarksville this weekend to see my family... As long as it's not 4000 degrees outside we're gonna hang at Amy's pool on Sunday. I get to see Grayson. That kinda stuff makes me happy!